TeTri

da

Savi

ana laSxeli

Tbilisi 2013

ISBN 978-9941-0-5399-3

dro samyaroze ufro didia

dedamiwaze ver povebs adgils,

dro faifuris nazi xidia

da sicocxlidan sikvdilze gadis

ana laSxeli

TeTri da Savi... es aris si-

cocxle da sikvdili, dabadeba

da gardacvaleba, Cven ki vcxov-

robT TeTrisa da Savis zRvarze...

romelsac cxovreba qvia...

© ana laSxeli (oniani) 2013

wigni gamosacemad momzadda gamomcemlobaSi `ustari~

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ufali

ra simSvidea, ufalo, CemTvis, Sen rom arsebob caze maRali, Seni sunTqva rom yovelwams mesmis da aravisTan ar gaqvs sazRvari... ra sididea, yvela Secdomas rogorc magaliTs ukan mibruneb, ar vimsaxureb Tumca Sendobas, sulis xsnad isev Sen dagiguleb... ra sikeTea amden codvilSi, Sen erTi dgaxar sufTa da wminda... sul axal codviT vwvebi loginSi, Sen axal dilas migzavni cidan... Sena xar muxa mravalwliani, Cemi codvebi sulSi gtkivdeba, Senc xom gWirdeba adamiani, adamians ki RmerTi Wirdeba... ra simSvidea Sen rom arsebob, Sen rom mogeli yoveli gzidan, me umadurma romc ar gaxseno, aTas sikeTes migigzavni cidan..

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Citebi da adamianebi

adamianebze lamazad kvdebian Citebi, Cumad xmauris gareSe... arc movaleobis usulo sityvebi... arc cru cremlebi Tvalebze... kvdebian uCumred, uayalmayalod savanes ideben RrublebSi da ase sufTa maTi samyaro, etevaT cicqna budeSi... adamiani? as sasaxleSic CitiviT mainc ver inavardebs, sikvdilSic unda kargad dasaxldes da iSeneben oqros galavnebs...

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gulo, ra simarTliT memarTlebi Seni arsebobis mainc mjera... RmerTo mapatie yvelaferi, rasac vxvdebodi da rasac vera...

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wvima

wvima imSralebs cremlebs da ver amTavrebs tirils, me svel quCaSi geZeb, viTmen haeris kivils... quCas astkivda guli, arc simartove ar Cans, RmerTo, ratoa rTuli ase cxovrebis gancda... arc misamarTi mSvelis, quCebs veSvile albaT, aqac aravin melis, saxlSic aravin damrCa... haers ar yofnis sunTqva, raRac mTavrdeba CemSi, Rame Semyurebs urcxvad es sagiJeTi SemSlis... suls jibesaviT vferTxav, ar SemrCenia gancda, sakuTar fiqrebs vgeslav, guli sagules gacda... wvimam umata tirils, svelze svelia quCa... dgas siCume da kivis, Rames leqsebi uCans.

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mapatie, ufalo

mapatie, ufalo, Sens nebas rom davusxlti da me Tixis Tojinam suli gamovigone... mapatie, ufalo, Sens xels xeli gavuSvi... sisulelem momxibla, Sengan wasvla vindome... mapatie, xom ici, ra patara vinme var, ra xania vcxovrob da Tavic versad vipove, dasasrulTan mogicdi, vici, gageRimeba, mec rom suli vindome... Seni mcnebis mere rom leqsi gamovigone... suls vZerwavdi sityvaSi, Cemi xarbi Tvalebi, dedamiwam moxibla... suls ra unda miwaSi, gamovcade guli da marTla Tixa yofila...

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sulis atana

miWirs, rodesac ganvicdi codvas, mtkivneulia sulis atana, roca sxeulSi Cemi me borgavs da vebrZolebi Cems wil satanas... minda, sanTeli Camovqna sulSi, Sig movayolo Cemi codvebi, rom davinaxo Tvalebi uflis Cemi sindisis anagelozebi... rogor metkina, rom gavxdi didi da bavSvobidan gamomaZeves... albaT verasdros gavxdebi mSvidi, ver davibruneb umanko dReebs... miWirs, rodesac ganvicdi codvas, mtkivneulia sulis atana, roca sxeulSi simSvide borgavs da vebrZolebi Cem wil satanas...

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cxovreba

mTvare – Cemi siCumis TeTri margaliti, ocneba – Cemi gonebis sulwasuloba... cxovreba – Cemi Secdomebis magaliTi, warsuli – Cemi codvebi da Tavgasuloba... leqsi – Cemi simSvidis saqsovi Zafi, musika – Cemi haeris lamazi rxeva, deda – Cemi sicocxlis cocxali saxli, taZari – uflis Tvalebidan keTili mzera... RmerTi – gansacdelSi arCevani, suli – TeTris da Savis brZola, Rame – dReebis saRebavi... codva – sindisis ZrZwolva... guli – cxovrebis sanagve, cremli – sakuTar Tavze sinanuli, ra damrCa sufTa da Seuryvneli?... mxolod erTi sityva – siyvaruli..

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cam daiwera miwasTan jvari

dRe nafotiviT watyda weliwads da moiwyina daclil yanwiviT, radgn cxovreba sikvdils ver itans, versad ipova misTvis adgili... cam daiwera miwasTan jvari da maT qorwilSi vRreobT, wlebia... Svilebs ar misca arcerTma gvari da es Svilebi cru dReebia... autaneli gaxda sinaTle, RamurasaviT vxedav samyaros da es sasjeli daRlil simarTlem mxrebiT sanamde unda ataros... dros nafotiviT miaqvs dReebi... ufals vamadliT Tavis gaCenas, aWrelebula natvris xeebic, es ukve niSnavs sustis arCevans... amdeni leqsic sisustes niSnavs, sityviT sityvebi sanam davqargo, Tumca suls mxolod ocnebiT vicav, am samyaroSi rom ar davkargo...

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suli

mesmis sakuTari suli, smenas gamudmebiT mifrTxobs, radgan mZimea da rTuli da sul sigiJisken mixmobs... mesmis, dauwerel leqsebs rogor axmaurebs CemSi, wuTiT simSvides rom SevrCe, momibrundeba da SemSlis... mesmis, rogor eZebs CemSi raRac ararsebul gancdebs... sevda ukavia xelSi da Cems warmosaxvebs dasdevs... risTvis amekida, netav, risTvis momimata tvirTi, me Tu leqsis weras vbedav, albaT vexumrebi sikvdils... ise amiria fiqri, CemSi xmaurobs da borgavs, suli gamewewa sityviT, Cemi Tojinis Tmebs mohgavs... ... ... ... Tumca usulobac damRlis, veRar moverevi dardebs... sanam Jangbadisgan damclis, yvelgan haeriviT damsdevs.

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kidev

kidev ra unda giTxra, sityviT ver avRwer gancdebs, radgan vercerTi sityva SenTan verafriT gaZlebs... kidev ra unda mogce, RmerTi cotaa gana? bedma rac unda momces, yvelafers SenSi valav... kidev sad unda wagyve, cis iqeT kidev raa? suls dReebiviT makleb, gzis mere isev gzaa... mec gamovyvebi am gzebs, vsdio Senamde iqneb, deviviT mZime dardebs, vapureb rogorc Citebs... kidev sanamde gendo, suls iqeT ra maqvs gana? minda, sicocxle SevZlo, Sen am sicocxles malav... RmerTo, ra unda giTxra, viT gagimeto sxvisTvis, CemTvis arcerTi sityva ar miTxovia RvTisTvis... guli mogeci bavSvis, amden Svils giCen leqsad, locviT agige saxli Sen ki ar ginda Sesvla...

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adamianebi

Cven dedamiwa gagvixda avad zRvas cremli stkiva, gzas nabijebi, zecac adgeba da sadme wava, ver dainaxos es sagiJeTi... mzem ver gagviTbo verafriT suli da amis gamo Tavad iwveba, siyvarulia samyaros guli, Cven siZulvili ar gvaviwydeba... mZime, usulo miwa metyvelebs da ganurCevlad uZlebs nabijebs, Cven cisartyelac sisxliT SevRebeT, dRe davamgvaneT namdvil sagiJeTs... ufals avkideT yvelam codvebi, mTvare mglebisTvis gamovimeteT, Cveni kuTvnili angelozebi fuWad xarjaven Cvenze sikeTes... sulze sikeTis Rili agviwyda da misalmebac gavxadeT rTuli, adamianebs is dagvaviwyda Tu romel mxares gvifeTqavs guli...

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gaCumdi

gaCumdi... isedac amtkivda fiqrebi, uSenod zamTari zamTarze civia... uSenod me sevdis mebaRe viqnebi, es wasvla gitaris gamwydari simia... gaCumdi... acade siCumes tkivili, fiqrebis mwkrivebSi nu isvri kamaTels, ar gesmis sulidan leqsebis kivili, romelic sul male gonebas wamarTmevs, gaCumdi... siyvaruls nu arqmev saxelebs, arcerTi sityvisTvis gawiro grZnobebi, Rrubelic bavSviviT tiris da axvelebs, radganac midixar... radganac mSordebi... Tu ginda siyvaruls fiqrebSi Cagiwni, badagis magivrad dagisxam ocnebebs ... me yvela wertilis boloSi dagicdi, Tu Cemi sizmrebis tyeebSi mogZebne.

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vidre qveynad ufalia RmerTi

rom SemeZlos, imden sityvas gagiCendi,

imden Tamam leqs davwerdi SenTvis,

siyvarulsac im wuTamde gagiwevdi,

vidre qveynad ufalia RmerTi...

rom vicode, rogor xdeba mzis anTeba,

alvis xeebs mividgamdi kibed...

rom vicode, Sens TvalebSi ra damxvdeba,

erTxel malviT Segxedavdi kidev...

rom mesmodes Seni fiqris nabijebi,

cxra mTas iqeT wavyvebodi vici,

mTels samyaros erTi sityviT agiRwerdi

da cremlebSi avurevdi sicils...

an iqneba erTxel asec moxdes,

Tavi vigrZno Sens xelebSi bavSvad,

CitiviT rom laRi frTebi mqondes,

cas uflisken waviRebdi sagzlad...

Cemi suli Sens suls sadRac Sexvda,

SeiZleba am sizmarSic Sevcdi...

davijero, sadRac RmerTic Secda?

da SemTxveviT SevxvdiT...

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Cemi wili siZulvili

Cemi wili siZulvilic siyvarulad vaqcie, am samyaros bneli mxare mzes miveci TiTebSi, Cems leqsebSi gipove da CemSi gamogamwyvdie, jvari unda daviweroT axalSobil sityvebSi. Cemi wili siyvaruli Sens TvalebSi gavcvale, gaverie gazafxulis cremlmoreul amindebs da imdeni viocnebe, ocnebebic davcale, Cemi wili siZulvilic siyvarulSi waiRes...

cxovreba

ra aris cxovreba dReebis mdinare natvris xe maradJams nedli, veravis ver naxavT bolomde mcinares zogs sulac ar aaqvs xvedri. ra aris sicocxle, mdinare daSreba, foTlebTan gaxmeba natvrebi, tkivili yovelTvis tkivilad darCeba, sikeTes agzavnis zRaprebSi...

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Sen

Sen imdeni haeri gaqvs saCemo, Sen imdeni siyvaruli gadmomde, rogor minda, Cemi sulic gaCveno, rogor minda, ar gamiubralovde...

ar minda

ar minda, giTmende fiqrebSi mivdivar...aq sevda gakerpda... ocnebebs Caviwyob jibeSi da mtredebs davuyri sakenkad...

dauwereli leqsebi

mitovebuli...Zveli saxliviT, mogonebebiT var gavsebuli da sadRac sulis erTi nawili svsea Seni fiqrTa krebuliT... dauwereli leqsebi maxrCobs, uSenod haers sunTqva aklia. mogonebebi bavSviviT marTobs, msgavsi dReebi mwkrivSi awyvia.

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mapatie

me mapatie, rac ar miTqvia, rac unda vTqva da rasac ver getyvi... sityvebs lodini Tu SeuZliaT getyvi iq... roca caSi SevxvdebiT...

isev meZvirfasebi

SuaRamea...male welSi gadatydeba Rame, meramdene dRe Tendeba guSindelis msgavsi, gavaReb da isev ise mivixurav karebs, sulsac isev axali dRiT, axal codviT davsvri. dRem RameSi gaaxila daxuWuli Tvalebi, meSinia, am siCumis zurgidan rom miyurebs, isev meZvirfasebi da isev damenanebi, kvlav waxval da ocnebebiT isev Tavs movityueb... Sens nabijebs ise viTvli, TiTqos gulis cemaa, midixar da sul ar dardob, haeri rom makldeba, es cxovreba ocnebebSi galeuli rwmenaa sanam suli sxeulidan cisken gadabargdeba...

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martiv sityvebiT

nu aduRdeba cxeli riTmebi, sul ar mWirdeba savse Tasebi, me Sen gitydebi martiv sityvebiT megulebi da meZvirfasebi...

erTmaneTTan varT

erTmaneTTan varT sulis ZafebiT, mTeli grZnobiT da mTeli gonebiT, albaT CvensaviT sevdas miecnen Cvens–Cvens quCaze lampionebi...

xom SeiZleba...

sikeTisaTvis avTan vibrZoloT, codvebi locviT gadagvetanos, xom SeiZleba, ise vicxovroT, erTmaneTi ar SemogveWamos?...

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Sens dakargvamde raRa miklia, uSenobamac ver damitia...

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Seni guli

Seni guli Cemi xelis gulTan feTqavs, Seni sunTqva Cems smenasTan krTeba. am siCumiT yvelaferi msurda meTqva, rac ki CemSi ukiTxavad xdeba... mousmine, dainaxe Cemi fiqri, gaTbi leqsSi aduRebul sisxliT... Cumad var da yvelaze mets ase vityvi, me usityvo siyvaruli vici, naxe, quCas Semoadna Ramis kaba, ganTiadma mzes ecekva valsi. yvavilebis fantelebi arc ki dadna, Caefanta dedamiwas TmaSi, naxe, guli rogor ucemT maRal xeebs, aCrdilebTan pantomimas cekvaven, iSviaTad gaixseneb aseT dReebs, sizmrebi rom gacxadebas bedaven... Seni guli Cemi xelis gulTan feTqavs, gazafxuli migvacilebs quCaSi da amaze meti sityviT rogor meTqva, erT haers rom CaviyolebT sunTqvaSi...

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yvelaze meti maSin viwvale, Sens ocnebebSi samudamod rom gardavicvale...

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erTi saxeli

rTulia, SenSi cxovrobdes ori, Sen da Sen... SuaSi ki siCumes fen, ar vici, ra xdeba, aq ar var, mgoni, davkarge realoba da gipove Sen. Camesmis, haeri rom ukravs musikas da miwa Secvales Rrublebis qulebma, sizmari Tavis Tavs nasizmrals ukiTxavs, axali grZnobebi dabades gulebma. rTulia, yvelafers saxeli daarqva, orive me iyo da erTi cxovrobde, rTulia, siyvaruls saxeli waarTva, arcerT mes ar endo gulwrfelad bolomde, Tumca guls verafers gaugeb advilad, ver mitevs, erTia bolos da bolos... erT-erTi, me, ki codvaa namdvilad, rom erTi saxeli damarqves mxolod...

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ra dro gavida...

megona, Cems fiqrs es samyaro ver daitevda, dRes erT WiqaSi gamovamwyvdie, sanam es wvima cis Tvalebze gadaiRebda, Cemi sulidan ver gavaRwie. axla ocnebs sadedoflo kabas vukerav, magram mziani amindebi ufro maSinebs... Zvel grZnobas, viT suls nel nakverCxals ise vuberav da Cemi Tavi TviTon macinebs, gadmogedebi martoobis tkbili surneliT da siyvaruli siyvarulze moyveba grZnobiT, Sen Cemi leqsis sityvebi xar marad ulevi da mets arasdros arafers gTxovdi, axla ki minda, Cems oTaxSi Camojde uxmod da martoobis musikaSi aawyo leqsi, ra dro gavida... Sen ki sulac ar gaxdi ucxo, sxeulSi isev guliviT SemrCi...

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auxdeneli mtkiva sizmari

auxdeneli mtkiva sizmari pepelas frTebi sami dRis mere... gadasaweri mtkiva pirjvari da ver vpoulob sakuTar xelebs... Camouqneli sanTeli mtkiva, waukiTxavi wignis gverdebi... wlebs, rogorc xeebs foTlebi scviva da vercerT xesTan veRar vCerdebi, sul ar mWirdeba Tqveni simSvide, arc mofrTxileba damwydar nervebis, suli beWebze gadavikide, mizezi ar maqvs aq gaCerebis

maocnebeb

mefiqrebi... mefiqrebi... mefiqrebi, ocnebebi ver iteven ocnebebs, erT zRaparSi verasodes ver viqnebiT, erTmaneTi sasjeliviT movZebneT.

megulebi... megulebi... megulebi... haeriviT... kidev metad mWirdebi, uSenobas sikvdiliviT veguebi, leqsebis mets veRarafers gpirdebi...

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maocnebeb... maocnebeb... maocnebeb, Sens TvalebSi mzes da mTvares ganvicdi, leqsad davTvli Seni sulis saocrebebs da zecisken saval gzaze dagicdi...

siCume Tovs

Tovs, magram Tovli ara, sicive, siCume Tovs... kmara! es sevda kmara, guli sixaruls mTxovs, meZaxis viRac, xma ara, siCume miTelavs suls... ar gamxel, sityvebSi gmalav, leqsebSi icocxleb sul, wvims, magram wvima ara, RvTis cremlebia ufro Cems Tavs ganwyobas vparav da mzeze xelebs vuTbob...

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dedamiwa

dedamiwa, galoTebul kacs waagavs, abdaubda miaqanebs dros, bevrs iZens da simTvraleSi bevrsac kargavs, bevrsac kidev misi nebiT Tmobs... quCa, sevdis upatrono sasaxlea, poeti Tu miaZaxebs leqsebs, vin amCnevs rom siyvaruliT aRsavsea, nabijebis gareSe rom ver Zlebs... miwa, fexiT gaTelili Cveni Tavi, rogor iTmens weliwadis droebs da ramdeni uRirsi da utifari masze marTavs sisxlisferad brZolebs... Rame, Cveni tkivilebis Tavsayari, uTvalebod darCenili dRe, ocnebis da realobis gasayari martosuli miuyveba gzebs... erTmaneTi... ai, ra gvaqvs saganZuri, nu gavwiravT erTmaneTis suls, Torem ise axlosaa dasasruli, Cveni sagzlad wayvana rom surs...

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gelodi

gadidda gulSi Seni adgili, Cemi sisxlisTvis dapataravda, is cru dReebi dRemde ganvlili Sen Tavs maklebda, Sens Tavs mparavda. gelodi, rogorc axal gazafxuls, Sens sulSi vaReb sulis darabebs, damiwer zRapris keTil dasasruls da lamaz sizmrebs cxadSi manaxeb. gadidda gulSi Seni adgili male sunTqvaSic amiCqardebi, amdeni wliT da sevdiT daRlili sxva gagiJebiT Semiyvardebi.

adamianebo

radganac vcocxlobT da RmerTs Tavi vakisreT, radgan vibadebiT, radganac vmravldebiT... adamianebo, sicocxles gaficebT, siyvaruls gaficebT, iyaviT kargebi...

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martooba

martoobaSi damicda fexi da samudamod aq mivejaWve, Semomixaza sxeuli wnexiT, aq sakuTar Tavs gadaveyare. Tqvens cxovrebaSi asi niRabi, erTi dRisTvisac aRar myofnida, aq ki erTi var... var Cemi Tavi, movedinebi rac var kokidan... iq ironiam gamaniava, aq ki ver mwvdeba vercerTi grZnoba. aq ufro zustad vici vina var, riTmebisa da sityvebis wyoba... aq ise davwer, rogorc mWirdeba, rogorc uxdeba Cems simartoves, aq arc aravin amixirdeba da sixarulic ver mimatovebs... Sors vdgavar Tqvengan, gamogeqeciT, cota macadeT, cota madroveT, Tqvens Cems cxovrebas sevdad eqeciT, macadeT, sanam suls Sevagroveb...

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gavicno Cemi namdvili suli, amden niRbisgan momeqca saxe, Tqveni cxovreba yofila rTuli, aq Cemi Tavi pirvelad vnaxe, arsad viCqari, mSvidze mSvidi var, aqedan vervin ver mimatovebs, Tqvens samyaroSi sevdis giJi var, aq ki erT grZnobas arvin gaTxovebs..

migule Seni tkivilis saxlad

ara, Sen ara, es me mivdivar, Cemi sulisTvis xar margaliti, yvelaze metad Sen rom mindixar, me amitomac ufro wavedi... Sen dagmSvendeba aprilis vneba, me ki ianvars ver gadavurCi, Cemi sicocxle landiviT qreba da Sens sicocxles dardSi gavucvli... agedevnebi sizmrebis axsnad, Sen rom exebi Seni TvalebiT, migule Seni tkivilis saxlad da datkbi Cemi gardacvalebiT.

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mimaklda sisxli,vuwilade cota gazafxuls nazamTral xeebs rom gauTbos civi fesvebi... da Tu leqsebSic davejaxe muzis dasasruls axal sicocxles kvlav gazafxuls davesesxebi... mimaklda sityva leqsebisTvis dabadebuli siyvarulisTvis aRar damrCa Zala da gancda... da mimZims Tavi ,gamoclili ...xavsmodebuli radgan cxovreba Zveli wignis ydasaviT gacvda...

leqsis dabadeba

orsuli muza borgavs da oxravs, iklavs gonebas...areuls, SeSlils... sakuTar Tavze SurisZiebiT, imSobiara poetma leqsi... melanSi gasvril daRlil TiTebiT Semoiwminda saxeze ofli, dacala gulma Subls mibjenili, grZnobebiT savse lamazi Tofi...

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uSenod

ar ganmicdia uSenod wami, yvelgan Tan maxldi viT Cemi guli, Sena xar CemSi iesos kvali, Cemi codvisgan daclili suli, ar memetebi, giwodo sityva, romelic iTqva amden bagidan, Sen unda Cemi Tavisgan mixsna, unda gavfrinde sulis fanjridan. uSenobaSi ar minda saxli, me misamarTi Sens iqeT ar maqvs da gagiJdao, Tu ityvis xalxi, me arcerT maTgans davuwyeb kamaTs, de viyo giJi, giJebs xom ufro SeeferebaT sulis sagiJe, me normalurebs samyaros vuTmob da zRurbls Sens sulSi gadmovabijeb.

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Sen, Cemo Tavo

Sen, Cemo Tavo, duelSi giwvev, rogor damRale, netav, icode, sulSi CarCenil mtkivneul xiwvebs netav sanamde unda viTmende... Sen, Cemo gulo, nuRar mawameb TviTonac rogor aRar gbezrdeba, ra xani aris, tkivils atareb, dardi dRiTidRe ufro gezrdeba, Sen, Cemo sevdav, geyo TareSi, kidev sanamde unda wamomyve, Sen am cxovrebis SeSlil mxareSi kidev verafriT ver gamaoceb... Sen, siyvarulo, dacale suli xom xedav, SenTvis ara maqvs Zala, radgan gamixdi urCi da rTuli da Cems cremlian TvalebSi gmalav... gadameCvio, iqneb, ocnebav, ra momitane, neta namdvili, uSenod guli tirils morCemba, gaxdeba fiqri ufro advili, Cemo leqsebo, Tqven damrCiT mxolod radgan suyvelam erTad gamwires, Cemi Tavic ki, bolos da bolos, rogorc ufsrkuli ise maSinebs... gadamekida sikvdilze fiqri aq yvelaferi mTavrdeba viTom? vinc sicocxleSi ar Wamda sircxvils igi sikvdilsac Rirseuls iTxovs...

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gamiuxeSa tkivilma suli sworad cxovreba sad iswavleba? Tu sicocxlea sikvdilze rTuli ratom davstiriT gardacvalebas? sanamde unda gitande aseTs... Sen Cemo Tavo duelSi giwvev rodemde unda vurCevde saxels, sulSi CarCenil cxovrebis xiwvebs

sarke

ar minda sarke, mtkivneulia, roca Seens saxes ormagad xedav, rac am saxeze dards Cauvlia, rac es Tvalebi ugrZvnia sevdas, ar minda sarke, miWirs vuyuro Cemi wlebisgan gadaRlil Tvalebs, radganac sarke civi, usulo kvlav miRebs Cemi warsulis karebs.. ar minda, ar var ise Zlieri, rom Cems Secdomebs TvalSi vuyuro, mec mokvdavi var da miwieri, gulianic da cota ugulo... ar minda sarke, mtkivneulia, Semounaxavs sxveniviT wlebi, rac am saxeze dards Cauvlia, yvelas winaSe pirispir vrCebi...

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gamicvale guli

rogor minda, davewio dros, rogor minda, daganaxo Tavi, yvelaferi arsebobas mTxovs, yvelafers aqvs sakuTari kvali.

rogor minda, Tan gadavyve aprils, Cavusaxlde iasamnis surnels. Cemi gancdis yvela gramSi maxldi, vici, gavcvliT erTmaneTSi gulebs.

rogor minda, Tvals vaxelde SeniT, Seni guli rom micemdes mkerdSi, rom arsebob Sen amiTac mSveli, aCrdiliviT agedevne gverdSi...

gadavcvaloT erTmaneTis guli, ufro kargad ganvicadoT radgan, ar iqneba jojoxeTi rTuli, Tu ki iqac ocnebis koSks Cadgam.

Semoxede monatrebas CemSi, dainaxe, rogor vxatav dReebs da erT suraTs uferobiT SeSlils, sulSi rogor vufaTureb xelebs.

rogor minda, davewio dros da daganaxo gawewili suli, geficebi, mec mombzerda mocda, gexvewebi, gamicvale guli.

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(radgan Cvens qveyanaSi erTi wlis bavSvi mSieri iRupeba)

natvris Tvals moswyinda natvrebis axdena, Zili da Ramec ki daRales sizmrebma, dReebmac moaswres wuTebis gacdena, leqsidan gaparva daiwyes sityvebma... mTvaresac moswyinda amdeni dideba, eklebsac astkivdaT Tavisi eklebi, mze cxeli sxivebiT saflavebs miswvdeba Rrublebma danames qaTqaTa zewrebi... ufalsac mounda ubralod cxovreba... da yvela Cvenganis gulebSi dasaxlda... Cvenive gulebma gvaqcies monebad siTbo da Rimili TovliviT gaTavda... damTavrda lamazi quCa da qalaqi, aq yvela dabrmavda, gayides Tvalebi, sulebi gavsvareT sicruiT, talaxiT da mivuxureT iesos karebi. natvris Tvals moswyinda natvrebis axdena, sizmrebmac usizmrod daxuWes Tvalebi, Cvens TavTan daviwyeT dReebis gacdena Cvenive codvebis maxeSi gavebiT.

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mainc vipove bina

agedevnebi fiqrSi, viT lamaz quCas gzebi... yvelas lodinSi gicdi, SemomeTvala wlebi... Semogisaxldi sulSi, ar miTxovia neba da Sens erT sityvas vucdi, mec rom meRirsos Sveba. avkinZe Seni sunTqva, Seni Tvalebis sxivi, Tavs ar ganebeb urcxvad da veZalebi Rimils, mogwyindi, rogorc Tovli, gareT darCenil zamTars, Tumca SemZle xar yovlis, mainc ar marTmev saxl-kars, Semogekedle sulSi, abezar stumars vgavar da Sens patara gulSi amdeni dardiT vdgavar... gadmovalage frTxilad SenSi amdeni weli, Tvalebs marideb civad, mwikvi SegniSne cremlis, gamodarebas vucdi, mze dagiTbilavs Tvalebs,

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zamTris Tovlian susxSi yvela xom ketavs karebs. mainc vipove bina, var madlobeli RmerTis, Ses gulSi Tbilad mZinavs, Seni sisxlis xma mesmis.

ra aris siyvaruli...

siyvarulia, ca rom samyaros lamazi qolgiT icavs, siyarulia, mTvare saRamos rom abnevia cis TaRs, siyvarulia, axali dila, Tvalis gaxela isev, siyvarulia, rom gagecina, bages RimiliT ivseb, siyvarulia, kldeze yvavili, ZaRlis qicini kudis, siyvarulia, Seni ocneba, cis simaRles rom udris, siyvarulia, mTaze taZari da miteveba codvis, roca ufali mudam mzad aris, suliT Segivsos xorci... siyvarulia, dedis Tvalebi dedis bgerebis siTbo... siyvarulia, Ria karebi, rodesac Sesvlas iTxov...

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siyvarulia, omSi sikvdili mkerdiT daWerili tyvia, siyvarulia, roca SviliSvis, babuas saxeli qvia... siyvarulia glexi da yana, uRels Sebmuli xari, erTi mecxvaris aTasi fara, rZian balaxze cvari... siyvarulia, ekalze vardi, dauwyebeli omi, quCaSi daRlil moxucze dardi da alublebis Tovli... siyvarulia vaJis nebarTva, qalis uZluri ara, roca erTurTis Casaxuteblad, dro arasodes kmara.

da nu icxovrebT usiyvarulod, sanam sicocxles ar Cauvlia, iq borotebas gzas nu gauyofT sadac amdeni siyvarulia...

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Cemi iebi Sens baRSi yvavis

matkina suli ugulo fiqrma, davborialob viT mTvareuli da am natkeni dReebis miRma isev gagrZelda dardi wyeuli... gamiaTasda Cumi dReebi, leqsebis Jini SemomeCvia, gadagifiqro, veRar gelevi, iqneb am leqsebs oqro gerCia. Cemi iebi Sens baRSi yvavis, lovebmac SenSi poves adgili, ver miveCvie cxovrebas ganvlils, ukan rom mrCeba, rogorc manZili... gazafxuliviT Sorsa xar Cemgan, Tumc gazafxuli uTuod mova, sul erTi sityva rom mainc geTqva, ar gavxdebodi lodinis mona, ici ocnebac ara xar ukve, Senze fiqrebi ocnebebs gascda, vagroveb qarSi sulnatken sityvebs, romlebic leqsis weraSi gacvda

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da mogiqargav leqsis konebiT sulis patara lamaz saxates, Segexiznebi mTeli qonebiT, TiTebiT, wamSic Sen rom Cagxates... maTxove Seni daRlili sevda, Seni natkeni yoveli wami, modi, mivideT ufalTan erTad, rom Cvens tkivilebs daweros jvari.

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me Cems cxovrebas ekaliviT vawuxeb iqneb Cemi tvirTia am samyaros uxmod gaZleba, me Cems sxeulSi damaluli Cems cixes viTmen, sanam sityvebi am leqsebSi cudad gaxdeba... mere ki albaT ver moviTmen umzeo sakans da momindeba sxeulidan gadmobijeba, nu momaCeCebT am cru Rimils viT xelSi nagavs Torem arc Tqveni sinanuli ar momindeba...

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erTi sicocxle ar msurs gakmaro

gzafxuls gazafxuli Seuyvarda, lamaz sityvebs _ erTmaneTi, Tumca grZnobebs grZnobebi gauTavda da... Senc waxvedi... sevdiT da gagrZelebis surviliT mTavrdeba yvela zRapari, savse maqvs suli wyurviliT, Tumca mezRapre sad aris da mtkiva uSenod yvela Cemi nakli, fiqrebma daxarjes fiqrebi, dabadebamdec mgonia, makldi sikvdilSic ase viqnebi, gamicvda guli, rogorc samyaro, SemorCa sulsac susti kedlebi, erTi sicocxle ar msurs gakmaro, erTi sikvdiliT ver dagexsnebi.

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cxovreba

Tovlis molodins da umzeo siCumes viTmen, qalaqi wvimiT dalba, wvimas rom qolga hqondes ar iwvimebda albaT... sadRac iwyeba quCa da iqve... mTavrdeba meore quCa... uswormasworo cxovrebis TamaSs bolo ar uCans... viRac quCaSi cxovrobs da saxls verafriT icvlis, viRaca usmens wvimas, viRac igonebs sicils, viRaca kvdeba magram, verc ki Seatyob sikvdils, viRac martoa da Tan qorwils sevdasTan ixdis... Tovlis molodins viTmen mec avirie gzebi, am siCumeSi gismen da rogorc napirs qviSa ise mecleba wlebi...

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bavSvobis megobrebs

dRem daxuWa Tvalebi da daRamda, davrCi sulTan da Cems fiqrebs vkiTxulob, Tqven, bavSvobis megobrebo, sada xarT, modiT, erTi cxovrebazec vixumroT. mogonebebs CamovferTxav gonebas, rogorc bebo kalTis ubes ferTxavda, ar daviwyeb leqsis gamogonebas, iqneb ufro kargi rame mecada, maxsendeba Cemi TeTri bavSvoba, sadac xatva axal kalmiT daviwyeT... mogonebebs ar dauwyoT gaSroba da erTmaneTs nuRar vigulmaviwyebT.

udedo Sveli

dRegaleuli Ramis kideSi vdgavar, viT tyeSi oboli Sveli, Cemi sxeulis sastik cixeSi Sengan moweril werilebs veli, Semomelia gancda–fiqrebi, Sens ocnebebSi mawevs xundebi, me sul udedo Sveli viqnebi, sanam Cems tyeSi ar dabrundebi.

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davxure suli

davxure suli, rogorc fanjara da Cemi Tavic Sig moviyole, mTeli samyaro munji gamxdara da sakuTari gamovigone, davkece fiqri, rogorc werili, radgan aravis ar surs wakiTxva, davcarieldi zamTris feriviT da muzac ukve malviT makiTxavs. dantes jojoxeTs kidev gavuZleb, oRond simSvide ar minda Tqveni, minda, Cems dardebs leqsTan Cavujde da simartoves movxvio xeli. davxure suli, rogorc fanjara, CemSive darCa Cemi dardebi, radgan samyaro munji gamxdara, isev Cems TavSi Cavikargebi.

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***

Tu qveyanaze samoTxe darCa, Tu siyvaruli isev grZnobaa, rom ar mindodes me Seni gancda, rom ar miyvarde... Tavxedobaa...

momenatrebi

momenatrebi, rogorc bavSvobis saxli, Semomakldebi, rogorc sinaTle Rames, Cemi cxovrebis yvela gancdaSi maxldi da Cems tkivilebs ulamazebdi Tvalebs... momenatrebi, rogorc siCumes bgera, mogonebebsac Seni surneli axlavs, Sen rom arsebob, uflis amitom mjera da uSenoba Cems suls TagviviT gaxravs. leqsis oTaxebs sulSi uSenod vaReb, ar megebebi, rogorc musikas smena... me Cems siyvaruls Sens gamo yvelas vakleb da xelmeored leqsSi avidgi ena. momenatrebi, rogorc bavSvobis saxli, Seni siSore amaze metad SemSlis, am samyaroSi mxolod Sen erTi damrCi da amitomac mTeli samyaro merCis...

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moTova

moTova Cumad, uTqmeli sevdiT, aewvaT xeebs SiSveli yeli. Tqvens siyvarulze gulwrfelad vwerdi da rogorc Tovli nabijebs, geliT. gavamzeure Cemi leqsebi, sulis sxvenSi rom ver davatie, Tu sakadrisad veRar SegwvdebiT, me momiteveT da mapatieT... mogeliT sulSi, minda sityvebiT aaxmauroT Semi siCume. Cven siyvarulad gardaviqmnebiT, Tuki erTmeneTs ar SeviZulebT. moTova Cumad, rogorc cxovreba gvaCuqa RmerTma qaTqaTa feri da mosawyeni erTferovneba, gaviferadoT, Cvenzea jeri.

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cas ewvia vnebis ali, bages bage apovnina, mTvarem xeebs TeTr CrdilebiT gaumarTa pantomima...

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svaneTs

aq TiTqos zecas Weri axades, rom daetiaT es mwvervalebi, angelozebma ise dagxates, ver mogacilos RmeTmac Tvalebi. Sekiduli xar mTis mwvervalebSi, rogorc arwivis veluri bude, ise uyureb mTvares TvalebSi, rogorc iremi daxedavs gubes. Seni sunTqvaa TeTnuldis qari da cxenis wyali giduRs venebSi, giyvars jixvebSi gazrdili dali, mzis akvans arwevs Sxara xelebSi. ukvdavebaSi gidgas fesvebi, koSkebiT liles miawvden ambors, ubralo sityviT rogor Segwvdebi, uflis kalTaSi sunTqav da saxlob. Sena xar Cemi sulis akvani, Cemi leqsebiT savse fiala, angelozebma ise dagxates, mSvenierebam ieWviana.

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vercerT sizmarSi ver dagexseni, SenTan sicxian suliT movedi da Tu mikadreb, koWli leqsebiT viqnebi Seni karis poeti. Seni sunTqvisgan aviReb riTmebs, melnad wyaroebs Cavuwob kalams, gamogigoneb sakadris sityvebs, Camovexsnebi niRbebiT TamaSs. vici, momarCen Cemi Tavisgan, movel, codvebiT welSi moxrili, Cemgan sikeTe sadRac wavida, var saflaviviT gulamoTxrili, Sen TiTqos zecas Weri axade, rom gagemarTa es mwvervalebi, gemudarebi, sevda gamxade, SenSi samyaros davemalebi.

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xelebi meqca locva vedrebad

Cemi suliviT Cumia zeca, simSvidis sunTqvas viTvli dReebiT. tkivili viwro kabebad meqca, locva-vedrebad, Cemi xelebi. sixaruliviT gaxunda Rame, molodiniviT vdgavar quCaSi, leqsis weraSic miTvlian wamebs da memarcvlebi sulSi, sunTqvaSi, avitan kidev, bevrsac avitan, imdens gavuZleb, gagikvirdeba, yovel dRes viTmen isev Tavidan, sanam gaZlebac amitirdeba. Cemi suliviT Cumia zeca, ar Cans sigiJis Cemi versia, xelebi meqca locva-vedrebad tkiviliT es dRe guSindelze ukeTesia.

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guls ra gamicveTs, Tu ar metkina

ra damaberebs, Tu ar vicxovre, guls ra gamicveTs, Tu ar metkina, Seni fiqrebi rom ar vicode, Seni dardebi Tu ar mewyina, vin gamagiJebs, Sen rom ar myavde, ar megulvode sulSi sinaTled da gulis guliT rom ar damyavde, vin gaminaTebs sulSi wyvdiadebs, vin Semifarebs umisamarTos, vin damikocnis haers tuCebiT, me Seni sulis kedlebSi vsaxlob, Sens monatrebas ver veurCebi. ra amatirebs, Sen rom ar myavde, aCvilebul guls raSi davxarjav, miwidan camde rom ar amyavde, Tavs siyvarulSi rogor davkargav? Sen rom ar iyo Cemi sicocxle, rom ar miqsovde sulSi sixaruls, sunTqvas da haers rom ar miyofde, vin maswavlida aseT siyvaruls.

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Cemi sevda sangaria

Cemi sisxli melania, suli frTaa kalmisa da orTaves swvavT survili leqsTan paemanisa.

Cemi cremli sisustea Cadenili codvebis, Cemi muza evas xea, dasjil angelozebiT,

Cemi sevda sangaria, daWril leqsebs vafareb, Cemi gzebi sad arian, es ra quCiT matarebT.

gamixunda yvela fiqri, RamisTevam gacviTa, Tu tkivilebs ver migivxvdiT, maS es guli rad minda?

martooba sadRac mmalavs rogorc bage Rimilebs, Seni yofna maZlevs Zalas, suls simSvidiT mimdidrebs,

am samyaros SeSlis zRvarze, mxolod SenSi vmSviddebi da icocxle qveyanaze, sanam me damWirdebi.

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Cemi xar

Cemi xar wuTis yoveli wamiT, CemSi xar, rogorc TveSi dReebi, mekuTvni rogorc samyaros grami, rogorc weliwads misi Tveebi. amevso suli uTqmel sityvebiT, mWirdebi, rogorc Tvalis gaxela, Tu wignis bolos erTad viqnebiT, dagicdi, rogor zrapris axdenas.

isev

ise daiRala dRe, sizmars dauketa kari, quCa miuyveba gzebs, rogorc mtkvars miyveba mtkvari, isev airia ca, borot angelozebs uRrens, me kvlav siyvarulis mwams, Cems suls sxeulidan vumzer. Rame miefera sevdas, mTvarem amiSala fiqri, quCa fiqrs moyveba SenTan, me ki quCis bolos gicdi...

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natvris xeebi

minda warsuli, mogoneba gadarCenili, mzis sxivi minda, kalmad viyido da Seni suli locvebidan gadawerili Semovixuro, rom SiSveli ar gaviyino.

minda, furceli sadac TeTri dadna zamTari, gamosagoni sityvebis rema, minda bavSvoba, Cemi lurjze lurji zRapari, bavSvuri guli, bavSvuri smena.

minda cxovreba gadavfurclo kalendariviT da amovxio civi dReebi, dgas monatreba quCis bolos sulel qaliviT, miwas ver gacdnen carieli natvris xeebi.

wamoval

wamoval, Tuki cad davsaxldebiT, Rrublis karvebSi movawyobT qorwils, Tu samudamod Camisaxldebi da Cvens qorwilSi iebi mowvims.

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mivdivar

me es cxovreba, rogorc saxadi, haers mikravs da sulis bindi var, avkrife Cemi guda-nabadi, sad es ar vici, magram mivdivar.

acivda

mze isedac Sors iyo, axla ufro dagvcilda, adamians rom kiTxo, wvimis gamo acivda.

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gaudidda borots guli, mzec uTbilo anTia, siyvaruli gaxda fuli da brendebad gvacvia.

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ca

ca imdens iTmens da aras ambobs, yvela siyalbes TvalebSi xedavs, miCumebuli usityvod dardobs, gverdze gaxedvas verafriT bedavs. cas Cvens magivrad ewvis loyebi, radgan Cvens nacvlad ganicdis sircxvils, ca sasaxlea Cveni codvebis, magram odesme yvelafers ityvis...

yvela tkivili gavyide

wuxel mTeli Rame wvimda, gulamoskvnilia ca, mec rom tirili minda da cremlebic aRarsad Cans, mogonebebi avxike da sulis sxvenSi miyria, yvela tkivili gavyide, kapikic ar amiRia, wuxel wvimis Rame iyo cas ewvis mlaSe cremlebi... da Tu rogorme gadaiRo, erTad gavaSroT ferebi...

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sizmari ar iyos

sizmari ar iyos, rom myavxar, sikeTes SeSurdes iqneba, miwidan camde rom miyvarxar, amas xom yvela ver mixvdeba, sizmari ar iyo, macade, dagxato... dagwero... giyuro, dagmalo, ar minda, gacxadde, rom gulSi sisxliviT gigulo. gaCumdi, sityvebSi nu Cdebi, macade, leqsebiT gxedavde, samyaros imdenad uxdebi, Senze fiqrs arc unda vbedavde, sizmari ar iyos, rom myavxar, ocnebis lamazi Sedevri, nabijebs Cems fiqrTan moyavxar, sicocxle am fiqriT SevZeli.

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ra martivia

ra martivia, miyvarde ase, ase ugonod da Tavgasulad, ocnebebiT da mWirdebiT savsem dagisakuTro Cems gazafxulad, ra advilia, warmogidgino, ca da mindvrebi dagiTmo sulSi, mogonebebSi Camogirbino da mogisajo adgili gulSi, Semovexvio Sens monatrebas, viwvode, rogorc koconze SeSa da rom icode, ra memerTeba, Sens TvalebSi rom Cems Tvalebs vxedav, ra martivia, miyvarde ase, warmosaxvaSic Segaxo xeli, Sen rom mogindes igive gasce, Sen rom giyvarde es aris Zneli.

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martooba

me martoobiT var carieli, sulze matyvia cremlis xazebi, me yvela leqsi TiTo dRes maklebs, mijanydebian sulSi frazebi. davcarieldi, rogorc xeebi da foTlebiviT gamcvivda wlebi, me simartovis uRels Sevebi da Cems ocnebebs vaCuqe frTebi, martoobaSi gavxdi euli, zogjer leqsebi Semomxedaven, radgan sevdad var gadaqceuli, CemTan darCenas veRar bedaven. gamomepara ramdeni weli, Zala ar Seswevs axla sinanuls, Cems simartoves Cavkide xeli da viReb misgan gulwrfel siyvaruls.

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suls Cavudgamdi sityvebs

Tavs vaCuqebdi leqsebs, suls Cavudgamdi sityvebs, zRva imdens rogor SeZlebs, rasac es guli itevs. guls vaCuqebdi yvelas, daviferTxavdi codvebs, ar davkargavdi rwmenas, amis Zala rom mqondes. daveyrdnobodi tkivils, amovicnobdi Cems Tavs, gamogonebul Rimils Cemi crelebiT vrecxav. Tavs vaCuqebdi leqsebs, suls Cavudgamdi sityvebs, zRva verasodes SeZlebs rasac es guli itevs.

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grZnobis fiala

aminiavda fiqri da guli, var carieli grZnobis fiala, codva imdenad araa rTuli, patiebam rom damigviana, suli adga da sadRac gameqca da carieli xorciT davdivar, zogjer ufali xuWavs Tvalebs da Cven borotebas maSin CavdivarT.

ufalo

mogonebebs sanTeliviT Sevubero suli minda da wyaliviT gadavRvaro dReebi da tkivilebi, mivagoro sinaTlisken es Savbneli dedamiwa sanam CemSi sanTeliviT Cavqrebi da mivilevi. sanam suli mabadia, sanam guli meguleba, nu damtoveb, RmerTo, marto amden xalxSi ekaliviT, xom viwvnie Cemi wili Ralati da erTgulebac, xom mogarTvi mTeli suliT rac mebada Sesawiri, xom vitanje Cems sxeulSi martosuli dReebiT, xom miyvarda siyvaruliT, maswavle, monatreba, axla nuRar mimatoveb, momaSvele xelebi, Torem sulSi Seni rwmena sanTeliviT madneba.

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Cumad var

Cumad var, ar minda getkinos sityvebiT naTqvami simarTle, ra vici, iqneb da gewyinos, leqsebiT Tavs rogor vimarTleb, Cumad var, haersac vamSvideb, Tumc grZnobas sigiJe uxdeba, wadi da, siyvaruls gaficeb, miec Tavs Secdomis ufleba.

Semindvia

rogor Sevcdi... gavuSale suli yvelas, axla ukve nabadiviT gaTelili Zirs migdia, ar daviwyeb iarebis sulis bervas, me ver SegcvliT, RmerTi gvindobs... da amitom yvelaferi Semindvia.

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fantaziis vali maqvs

fantaziis vali maqvs, leqsebs Tvals ver vusworeb, gadaRvrili wyali var, suls bina ver vupove. ocnebebis mebaRe, daketili fanjara, var leqsebis mewaRe, bedma sad ar matara, suls davarqvi udabno, sxeuls uxmo sagiJe, rac ar unda uarvyo, miwas gulze vabijeb. damaqvs gulis kankaliT erTi guli sagules, Tu gamyveba marTali codvebma ar daRupes, Cemi Tavis vali maqvs, zeca-zeca viare, dro movpare sicocxles, fuWad gavaniave, ocnebebiT daRlili mivadeqi napirebs, grZnobebisgan daclili Cemgan wasvlas vapireb.

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meuRles

Sen mexmarebi, rom gavxde kargi, rom ar gavgiJde codvil miwaze, Sen ici Cemi jiuti dardi, rom gadavcvale suli sizmarze, ar milamazeb Cems nakls tyuiliT, me Sen ubralo sityvebiT mSveli, Cemi sevdaze daqorwinebiT civ realobas Sevaxe xeli, Sen ki iTmen da usityvod itan amden sulelur azrs da nawerebs, radgan uSenod ver gadavitan kviris dReebis gamcvdar saxelebs, unda gamiZlo, radgan gendobi, radgan uSenod gancda maklia, Sen xar Tbili dRe, ufro Semndobi CemSi Tavxedi,giJi martia, mze gadayveba Ramis gaCenas, Sens Cems dardebSi mogiwevs dardi, Sen gevaleba CemTan darCena, Sen mexmarebi, rom gavxde kargi.

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adamianebi da realoba

qaosi... qaosi... qaosi... uTqmeli naTqvami saTqmeli, codevebSi davaxrCveT daosi eSmakebs gavuReT sarkmeli. sicive... sicive... sicive... mzesac ki vatkineT sinaTle, tyuilebi erTida igive da jvarze gakruli simarTle... sagiJis gareSe giJebi eklebi, uvardo eklebi... cxovrebis tvirTi da xiznebi grZnobebis uTao mxedrebi... gulebSi, sulSi da fiqrebSi galesil sityvebis tareba... Cvens codvebs vinaxavT jibeSi da gagvces sakuTar Tvalebma...

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suls

suls mogiqsov iebiT da mzis sxivebiT saguleSi Cametevi, netav? Tvalebs vxuWav, Tavs vkargav da viRimebi, ocnebebSi SenTan yofnas vbedav... Sens tuCebze Tavs moiyris yvela leqsi, yvela sityvas Sens TiTebSi vaTbob, moval sanam es aprili Cumad SemSlis, Seni quCis simSvideSi vsaxlob. momenatra Seni fiqris gadaxatva, Seni sulis gazafxuli maTrobs, axla, roca es sicive gadamartda, am siTboSi ufro metad gnatrob, suls mogiqsov iebiT da gazafxuliT, Sens ocnebebs Semovaqsov locvas, siyvaruli RvTisganaa daxatuli, adamians salocavad mogvca.

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miyvarxar

miyvarxar sizmris aTasi feriT, miyvarxar fiqris yvela namceciT, Cemi xar sulis yoveli nerviT, SenSi sivdilis zRvarsac gavcdebi. miyvarxar gulis yovel kuTxeSi dabadebidan dabadebamde, me var codvili... civi, uxeSi, Sen angelozad gamomecxade, miyvarxar yvela darCenil sityviT unda movnaTlo, rac ki leqsebiT, avad gamixda sizmrebi sicxiT, magram sizmarSic ver dagexsnebi, miyvarxar sisxlis yoveli gramiT, miyvarxar yvela Tvalis gaxeliT, siyvarulidan sicocxlis gavliT sikvdilis merec Seni gavxdebi.

maxsovs

maxsovs, rogor vificebdiT erTmaneTs, kenWbs vcnobiT, daviswavleT quCebi, axlac aq varT, veraferi Secvales, mogonebebs vervin gadavurCebiT.

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ra xdeba?

ra xdeba, ratom Sescivda mzes da aq gaRimeba aravis ar surs, misamarTebi aebnaT gzebs da mogonebebiT awuxebT warsuls, ra xdeba, ratom gcivaT TvalebSi, rogor dagemsxvraT wlebi viT sarke, SuadRea... da Tqven cxovrobT RameSi yoveli codviT RmerTs Zalas aklebT, ratom SeswireT siZulvils msxverpli, balaxi wiTlad rogor SeRebeT, daasaxiCreT, awameT RmerTi da mere zecas TvalSi SexedeT, rogor dacaleT wvimisgan zeca, rogor atkineT simSvides suli, bedniereba sxeulad gecvaT da sxeulidan gayideT guli...

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mindoda

mindoda, suli sufTa mqonoda, siyvarulisTvis mecxovra mxolod, bavSvoba bolomde gamomyoloda da movreodi Cems sulSi borots. mindoda, guli ar gamesvara, ar amreoda sikeTe avSi, uflisTvis suli gadameSala, moxucebulsac mrqmeoda bavSvi, magram SegarCens cxovreba rames? erT ocnebasac gagixdis natvrad, Tu ar gauReb, dagimtvrevs karebs, martoobasac CagiTvlis marcxad, wminda gramic ki ar SemrCa sisxlis da guls miwamlavs yoveli wveTi, isev ganvicdi dReebis sikvdils, Cems suls rom vTelav sakuTar fexiT.

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oRond Sen erTi

waviqceodi imis imediT, rom Seni xeli amayenebda, dasasrulamde ise mivedi, megona, dardi damasvenebda, CavisunTqavdi mTels dedamiwas, iqneb filtvebSi Senc momyolodi, xom ici, mets rom veRar avitan, ukve Tvalebi ewvis molodins. xom ici, suli ra amyolia, gayveba mTvaris daSvebul naTels, leqsi damiSra, ase mgonia da Cems tkivilebs ver varqmev saxels, davibneodi imis imedad, rom Sens TvalebSi davxridi Tvalebs, Tu Seni guli ar mimiRebda, miveyrdnobodi Sens mkerdSi karebs. gavgiJdebodi imis imediT, rom gemkurnala Cemi leqsisTvis, oRond Sen erTi Tu gamigebdi da Cems samyaros RvTisken Secvlidi.

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me ver SevZeli

amtkivda mxrebi, dedamiwa damaqvs eulad, gamicvda gzebi da sakani damaqvs sxeulad. amtkivda sityva. (iqneba vcdebi...) mTeli samyaro sagiJeTad gadaqceula. amtkivda bedi... bedi uCemo... iqneba masac surda vyolodi... Cems Tavs leqsebi rom davuCemo, iqneb gavuZlo zamTris molodins. amtkivda guli, bedis narCeni, mxolod es guli gamoimeta, me raxania, sisxliT varCendi da es erTiRa myavda imedad. axla ki gulic mtovebs napirze, mtovebs ugulod, Cumad, eulad... sevdam Semixsna sulis sakinZe da jojoxeTi meqca sxeulad, amtkivda mxrebi... me ver SevZeli, Cemi sxeulis CemiT tareba, Sen Tavo, ise Semogeclebi, rom Seni Tavi dagenaneba.

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wvims

wvims... sevdiT savsea haeri, Rame banaobs qaliviT, Cemi Tavidan gaved, dro daxarjuli wamiviT. wvims... araferi Savdeba, ubralod sevda damCemda, sadRac amindi mTavrdeba, sadRac haeric gaCerda. wvims... misveleben ocnebebs Cemgan wasuli fiqrebi, Cems sulSi ise mogZebne, rogorc zRaprebSi sityvebi. sul uSenoba mebada, ase gaZleba Znelia, amdeni rame xdeba da uSenod araferia.

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qali

me yvelaferi Sen mogiZRveni rac SeiZleba guliT gameRo, yvela tkivili frTxilad gagxade, Seni sulidan Sors rom wameRo, me uflis rwmenac SeniT daviwye, var gaugebar bodvebiT mTvrali, sigiJis garda, arc ra gamomdis da amitomac damerqva qali.

sicocxle

sicocxle Cveni sabavSvo baRi, xan tirilia, xanac sicili, guli, bolomde erTguli ZaRli, Tan rom dagyveba kudis qiciniT. ufali, Cveni codvebis sxveni, Cvens sulebSi rom ver davatieT, adamiani?... adamiani erT Secdomasac ar gapatiebs...

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Tu

Tu yvelaferi kargad iqneba, albaT ver gaZlebs adamiani, rodesac suli brZoliT ivseba, cxovrebas ebrZvi far-xmaliani. Tu yvelaferi advilad naxe, Tu siyvaruli langriT mogarTves, CaTvale, Sens Tavs dauge maxe da Seni suli sevdiT monaTle. Tu ki brZlisTvis ar gaqvs mizezi, mdore wyaliviT wevxar gubeSi, sxvas verasodes Seexidebi, ver Seifareb mkerdis ubeSi. Tu yvelaferi mogca bunebam, dRe ar gqonia aramziani, Tu sulSi dardi ar eguleba, ise ver gaZlebs adamiani.

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movxucdi RmerTic

xelis gulebiT SevabruneT samyaro sxvisken da ase gvian siyvarulze viwyeT fiqrebi, roca xelebi savedreblad avwie cisken, mzis sxivebiviT Semegeba uflis sityvebi. ,,adamiano siyvarulis niWi gaCuqe, Sen siZulvilSi gadacvale es saocreba, Cemgan waxvedi, gauyevi SenTvis sxva quCebs momwydi viT dedas mucladmyofi bavSvi mowydeba. gadamabije, Cemi siTbo zamTars miugde usiyvarulo RimilisTvis gawire Tavi, Cemi sityvebi moaqcie, eSmaks miuge, da mgelis tyavSi gamoewyve odesRac kravi... axla nu gikvirs, mzes sxivebi Tu gaugrilda, Tu ocnebebi tkivilebs erTvis, radganac suli aRaravis arad uRirda, gavWaRaravdi, movxucdi RmerTic.’’..

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rodemde

mWirdeba Seni rwmena, lamis gavgiJde, ise, SeniT avivse smena, guli gareTac micems,

Tvals ver vusworeb Cems Tavs, TiTqos gaTavda sisxli, rodemde unda erqvas bednierebas sxvisi, Tvals ver vusworeb sarkes, wlebi matyvia Tmebze, viTvli sakuTar naklebs, dReebs viferTxav mxrebze. veZeb sakuTar Rimils, iqneb gadayva zamTars, vuZleb leqsebis kivils, rom ver vuSeneb saxl-kars. veli ufals da albaT ver moicala CemTvis, Cemi sxeulis karTan Tavis lodini SemSlis.

74

sanam avitan, netav, am araqalur tvirTebs, fanjridan siTbos vxedav, rom moxvevia kvirtebs. iqneb Semomxvde sadme, sisxlSi gamomyve siTbod, me siyvaruli gande, Cems arsebobas giTmob, Torem vexsnebi Cems Tavs, Tvals ver misworebs fiqri, rodemde unda erqvas bednierebas sxvisi.

netav

ar vici, rogor davusxlte Cems Tavs, rogor SeviZlo marto darCena, Cemi leqsebi Cems sulSi feTqavs, mtkivneulia maTi gaCena. ar vici, rogor davexsna Cems Tavs da raxania, mRlis da mawamebs, netav, sicocxles sizmari erqvas, gaiRviZeb da ar gagawamebs.

75

aseT siyvaruls

aseT simSvides me ver avitan, an ra xibli aqvs aseT cxovrebas, Tu yovel dilas iwyeb Tavidan, da sul igive dRe meordeba. aseT siyvaruls me ver avitan, roca yvelafers leqsebi stkiva, erTis wasvliT rom yvela wavida da martoobas foTlebi cviva. aseT leqsebsac ar aaqvs madli, uxerxulia, mudam dardobde, genatrebodes siTbo da saxli, brundebode da isev garbode.

gamimartda

gamimartda... rogorc iqna molodinic daminayrda iebis da yvavilebis naxvis, gamixarda... ocnebaSi gamimarTla, Zlivs RimilSi SevamCnie xalxi...

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sevdis atana

daRvinda suli da ufro mSvidad miwevs cxovrebis sevdis atana, simartovea Cvens Soris xidad, Cem Tavs axlos rom ar gamakara. sasaciloa amdeni wera, amdeni leqsis Svilad gaCena, me usinaTlos Tvalebis mjera, rom SeuZlia grZnobiT garCeva. me usaxlkaros saxli davxate, mSvidad ganvicdi amden siaves, erTmaneTs suli uRvTod gavxadeT, da axla viTmenT erTs da imaves. daRvinda suli da ufro mSvidad, vitan cxovrebis marcxena mxares, ufali isev damyuebs cidan, me ki miwisken vapareb Tvalebs.

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erTi sizmaric ver vnaxe Tbili

sizerebis nacvlad gavxdi sizmari, yvela ocneba TiTo dRes maklebs, var Cemi sulis urCi xizani, Cemive Tavic verafers marqmevs. gamevso suli natken sityvebiT da vimarageb codvebs dReebiT, aba, me ufals rogor mivwvdebi, leqsis weraSi daRlil xelebiT, gadameRoba cxovreba gzaze, Semomesia Savi da TeTri, eklebs vacileb sakuTar azrebs, sanam saTqmeli Wkuidan SemSlis, gadamekida mTvare leqsebad, erTi sizmaric ver vnaxe Tbili da sanam suli sxeuls SerCeba, viqnebi sevdis maradi Svili.

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sigJis zRvarze

me vdgavar Cemi sigiJis zvarze, Tavs visuleleb TiTqos vwer leqsebs, gamovedevne cxovrebas gzaze, mivyvebi sanam xetials SevZleb, gamiasmagda dardi da fiqri da viT pepela sami dRis mere, Cavusaxldebi marad myof sikvdils da kvlav werisTvis movmarTav xelebs. miveferebi uSeno sityvebs da siyvaruli daxuWavs Tvalebs RmerTom xom icim ramdensac viTmen ver momixurav amitom karebs me moval SenTan, Sens TeTr kalTaSi maswavle leqsis fiqri da ena, radgan Sens iqeT armaqvs saxl-kari da leqsis garda sxva bedis wera.

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ar gamxel

Tovs, magram Tovli ara, sicive, siCume Tovs... kmara.. es sevda kmara, guli sixaruls mTxovs. miZaxis viRac, xma ara, siCume miTelavs suls. ar gamxel, sityvebSi gmalav, leqsebSi icocxleb sul. wvims, magram wvima ara, RvTis cremlebia ufro, Cems Tavs ganwyobas vparav da mzeze xelebs vuTbob.

minda

minda, gavide Cemi Tavidan, Cemi sxeulis mZime saknidan... minda CitiviT laJvardebs gavcde ar gavcqerode zecas fanjridan...

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dro

ra aris dro? dro erTaderTi ramaa, romelic ar dabadebula, ar qonia bavSvoba, axalgazrdoba da Sesabamisad, arc sibere emuqreba. ar yolia deda, mama, naTesavebi, yvela umaduri da mondurebuli yavs, ar yavs satrfo, Sesabamisad, verc Svilebi eyoleba, verc mSobeli gaxdeba, is aravis gavs da aravin gavs. dro didia... cotaa... namcecia... Tvea... ricxvia... amosunTqvacaa... dro uxilavia da mTebs azanzarebs, angrevs... amTavrebs... dro aris matarebeli wreze, midis da mgzavrebi gadayavs, mgzavrebs miaqvT bargi, mogonebebi... tkivili... sixarulic... dro araferi da yvelaferia...

81

arc gardaicvleba, mobezrda sakuTar Tavs dro... sadRac Camojda mTvarian gubesTan da ,,sarkeSic’’ ki ver dainaxa Tavisi saxe...

wvima

mgoni, gavige ra unda wvimas, ratom eSveba cidan miwaze, angelozebic tirian zogjer da cremli cviva dedamiwaze.

vardisferi saTvale

vardisferi saTvale rom mqondes, vardisferi iqneboda dRec, Cvens sulebSi ufali rom moxvdes, ufro metad gagvaTbobda mze.

didi var...

SeveSvi bavSviviT zRaprebis moyolas, didi var, coxvrebis viwvnie saxadi, Senc CemSi nu eZeb patara gogonas, romelsac vardisfer kabebSi xatavdi.

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gadamede

uSenod ise patara gavxdi, rom araferic gadamiwonis, sadac gavCerdi, yvelgan Sen damxvdi, dasasruls miRmac vici, mipovi. yvelgan savsea SeniT haeri, Sen gadamede yvela fiqridan, sulis sevdian xelTaTmanebiT gadmogiwere leqsi fifqidan. yvela sityvaSi Sen gadamede, arcerTi wami ar SemarCine, Sens gamo sikvdils leqsiT gavende, Sen sicocxlisgan gadamarCine. davtove yvela usiyvarulod, me uSenoba uRmerTod SemSlis, Cems siyvarulSi leqsad xmaurob, Sen gadmomede RmerTidan CemSi.

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mTvare

Cemi sigiJis TavSesafari, Cemi fiqrebis civi galia da yvela sityva leqsiT naTqvami Seni lamazi sevdis bralia. Sen rogorc mgeli, uZaxi zecas, daumegobrdi martosul Rames, Sen unda leqsis samosi gecvas da poetebSi axelde Tvalebs. gamilamaze sevdis tyeebi, Seni Crdilebi matyvia sulze, me yvela leqsSi mogeferebi, Seni siCumis musikas vusmen, TeTr anaforas Seukrav Rilebs, Ramis wirvaze gamobrZandebi, poetebs, rogorc Sens ukvdav Svilebs, daWril muzebSi dauamdebi, Sena xar sxveni amdeni dardis, amden tkivilis, amden fiqrebis, nuTu cxovreba verasdros dagRlis da sul aseTi kargi iqnebi.

84

ramdeni sevda gaCuqa RmerTma da vis uyvebi gulis tkivilebs? yvela mis dardze wuwunebs SenTan Sengan moismens vinme igives? modi, momxvie civi xelebi, Sen xom ar ici, ra aris siTbo, Cemi leqsebiT mogeferebi, me Cems gazafxuls zamTarSi giTmob.

Rame var

Rame var, romelic verafriT gaTenda, Tovli var, romelic ianvars gadavrCi, uSeno dReebi sigiJed damCemda da Seni filtvebis haerSi davsaxldi. uSeno sixaruls ar aaqvs gancdebi, dacales sityvebma fiqrebis sasaxle da Tu am sxeulSi sul marto davrCebi me isev leqsebSi vipovi dasayrdens.

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ocnebebis qorwili

dRes Cems ocnebebs sadedoflo kabas vukerav da Cems siyvaruls RimiliT da iebiT movrTav, zecas TvalebSi iisferi cremli uelavs da siyvarulsac Rvinisferi gadakravs odnav. moxval, momitan Rimilisgan Sekrul Taiguls da erTgulebas damabnev beWdad, Cemi leqsebic maCuqeben albaT kalmis suls, romelzec mudam poetebis TiTebi feTqavs. SemomeTbile... siyvarulis dResaswaulze Seni lamazi siyvaruliT mewvie caSi da varskvlavebis saTuT xmaurze zecis kravebze vicekveT valsi. dRes Cems siyvaruls daukocnavRimiliT movrTav, jvarze gakruli sulic morCeba, albaT siyvaruls Rvinisferi gadakravs odnav da vrZnob Cven Soris uzRapresi raRac moxdeba.

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Sen xar haeri

Sena xar Cemi didi Rirseba, Seulamaze cxovrebas madli, sxva yvelaferi isev icvleba, Sen ki ar icvli Cems gulSi adgils. mogonebebSic Camkide xeli, varskvlavebiviT momede sulSi da yvelaferi gaxade wrfeli rac sicrueSi daobda gulSi, Sen xar Jangbadis sufTa atomi, minda, Sens gulSi gulad vsunTqavde, dabadebamdec Senve gnatrobdi, Sen xar haeri, CasunTqvidan amosunTqvamde...

dro

dro samyaroze ufro didia, dedamiwaze ver povebs adgils, dro faifuris nazi xidia da sicocxlidan sikvdilze gadis.

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bavSvobis mogoneba

Ramea Cemi fiqrTa beReli, rudunebiT rom Sevaxe xeli, Ramea bneli, sevdiT uZRebi, Cemi simSvidec mas mivuZRveni. WaRara Tmebi mesizmra dedis, TiTqos bavSobas qanci gaclodes, mogonebebis SevaRe sxveni, vxedav damtvreul saTamaSoebs. mivyvebi soflis patara biliks, Tvalis gaxela rogor ar minda da yoveli qva magonebs Rimils, rom daqalda da sadRac gafrinda. Semoviare tye da mindvrebi, mogonebebi yvaoda yvelgan, Tqven rom icodeT, rogor mWirdebiT, ar waxvidodiT arasdros Cemgan. metkina dedis WaRara Tmebi, gadaRebili babuas saxli, quCa _ bavSvobis gaSlili frTebi, daberebuli, uRono ZaRli. gamevso sevdiT sulis fiala arcerTi bavSvi ar damxvda bavSvi, cremlebma sulze gadmomiara, rom rogorc iqna, mec didi gavxdi. an sad wavida SavTvala bali, xe mainc rogor wavida Cemgan,

88

ulamazesi bavSvobis kari, rogor Carazes... Caketes yvelgan, fiqrebis Ceros vafareb Tavs da ise ucxoa quCa gamzrdeli. Cemi sofeli gazafxuls gavda da aRma– daRma peplebs davsdevdi, axla ki sevdiT gamevso guli, mogonebebma gadamkra saxre, ase daclili... natkeni suliT mainc SevZeli da mainc gnaxe. Cems kalandaze angelozebi sanTlebs anTebdnen gamTbar saxlebSi, nuTu verasdros veRar mogZebniT, Tqven mezoblebo, saiT waxvediT? amtkivda yvela daclili saxli, xavsmodebuli ezo da kari, TiTqos uRirsi stumari gaxldiT, vercerT maspinZels movkari Tvali. movyvebi quCas... ase sevdians, yvela RriWodan mimzers bavSvoba, uflis neba da kacis bedia, Cems talaxSi rom sxva TamaSobda.

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waval

me angelozebisgan mitovebul quCaze vcxovrob, sadac leqsebi aCrdilebiviT midi-modian, me am quCaze droebiTi mdgmuri varv mxolod, magram sxva quCac ukeTesi ver mipovnia. me siyvarulis namcecebic ki menaneba, sanagveeSi rom yrian ugulod, zogi sustia,zogi flidi,zogi Tavneba, ar SemiZlia, arafris mTqmel Tvalebs vuyro. albaT am quCas cota xanSi davtoveb, magram sad SeiZleba, uaseTo quCa veZio, leqsebis wera wamoiwyo Cems sulSi dardma, iqneb rogorme borotebas gadaveCvio. me am quCaze ar minaxavs arc yvavilebi, arc gaRimebul tuCebisTvis momikravs Tvali, waval, movZebni sxva quCas da Cemo leqsebo, Tu daviRale araferSi ar damdoT brali. me sikeTisgan mitovebul quCaze vxatav, Cemi fanjridan aCrdilebi moCans leqsebis, kuTvnil cxovrebas dauwerel leqsebSi vfantav da am wamebas sikvdiliTac ver davexsnebi.

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Cems merec iqneba lamazi maisi

waval da Cems merec siCume darCeba, igive dReebi, usulo sityvebi da visac ar unda mogindeT gaqceva, Tqven mainc cxovrebis cixeSi iqnebiT. amaod ecdebiT, gaeqceT samyaros, suyvelgan gzebia da mainc arsaiT, iyvirebT an SesTxovT iesos gakmaroT da pasuxs gaigebT siCumis xmasaviT. waval da Cems merec gaCndeba iebi, Cems merec dadgeba aprilSi zamTari, sevdaze itirebs wvimaSi minebi da quCac bevrisTvis iqneba saxl–kari. Cems merec iqneba lamazi maisi, leqsebic daxios iqneba poetma, visTvis es cxovreba iqneba daisi, viRacas or mxares uCvenebs moneta.

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me ise kargad vTamaSob Cems rols

me ise kargad vTamSob Cems rols, Tqven dagaviwydaT, rom me me ar var da am niRbis qveS ra bedic mergo, me Tqvens TvalebSi im qals ar vgavar. ar vgavar sevdis lamaz musikas, tyis da balaxis ar vgavar bgerebs, Cems suls leqsma rom gadausityva rom siTeTreSi daveZeb ferebs. Cemi Teatris erTi gmiri var da mayureblis civ Tvalebs vuZleb, Cems siCumeSi ise vyvirivar, bgerebs furclebze leqsebad vumzer. gavuZleb sanam guli amitans da mivakereb sityvas sityvaze, me am tkivilebs camde avitan, rom ar mtkiodeT codvil miwaze.

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erTi dRiT albaT naklebi damrCa

me vRelav Seni simSidis karTan, Cem Tavs movpare kidev erTi dRe, erTi dRiT albaT naklebi damrCa, Seni dakargvis rom SemeSindes. me vdgevar Seni quCis kuTxeSi, verc ki SemamCnevs Seni Tvalebi, dgas simartove TeTri, uxeSi da mec mis naqsov qselSi gavebi. axla ganTiads elis Tbilisi, erTi dRiT albaT naklebi davrCi, ramdeni damrCa kidev, vin icis, var kalapoti, wylidan rom davSri. aTas Cemnairs davitev kidev, aTasi giJis SevZleb gagebas, gzaSi aTasgvar megobars viZen, memetebian sevda-dardebad. vxedav, mSvidi xar, ar iSli Sensas, Cems amindebSi leqsad gelian, nawvimar quCebs mtredebi kenkavs, cas simartovis Cumi feri aqvs.

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dedas

mgoni, sizmrebi maxeSi gaebnen, ar mesizmrebi deda... iqneb imitom, rom ase cudi Senze fiqrs veRar vbedav. Cem Secdomebma jvarze gagakres, sulze gatyvia cremlad, Cem gamo wlebma wlebi dagakles, gimates gulis cema, sastik cxovrebam xeli dagavlo, gaqcia TmaTeTr gedad, veRar giyureb ase sevdians, kiTxvasac veRar vbedav. Cems dReebs vxarjav uswormasworod, erTi dRe udris codvas, es Ramec unda gadavagoro, avyve leqsebze bodvas, minda, sizmarSi mainc gamaTbo, miiavnano xmebi da gawewili suli damvarcxno, viT bavSvobaSi Tmebi... iqneb codvebma locvebis kiTxviT moinanios codva, Seni erTguli, lamazi sityviT SemomaTbilo kocna. mgoni, sizmrebi maxeSi gaebnen, ar mesizmrebi deda, albaT imitom, rom ase cudi, Senze fiqrs veRar vbedav...

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akvani

babuas werili ninikos

dRes yvelaze bednieri da gaxarebuli davweqi dasaZineblad... Cemi patara natvrisTvali daibada. rogorc iqna, RmerTma wyalobis TaliT gadmoxeda Cvens ojaxs, amdeni xnis nanatri SviliSvili Cagvisva kalTaSi... me, babua, erTi ubralo berikaci var... wesivrad SeiZleba, zRaparic ki ver mogiyve... saTvalec ki ar miSvelis Cemi dafsobili TvalebiT wigni wagikiTxo... magram me SenTvis axal zRaprebs davwer, babu... movifiqreb da zepirad mogiyvebi... Sen sanam mixvdebi, rom babuaSens kargad wera-kiTxvac ki ar exerxeba, meyolebi kalTaSi da mogiyvebi Cems gamogonil zRaprebs... mere ki... mere rad ginda, babu, Cemi zRaprebi... TviTon iswavli kiTxvas da dafrTiandebi... da manamde me Segayvareb Cvens dalocvil sofels... Cvens ankara wyaroebs... Cvens beber muras da CiriviT Camomxmar bebosac ki... romelsac dResac ninikelas vuZaxi, TiTqos is patara gogo iyos, me rom pirvelad vnaxe... Sen SeiZleba iseTi kargi gogo dadge, daCaCanakebul bebrebs wyals ar gvaklebde, dakargul joxs mogvirbeninebde da muras yefaze gareT Cems nacvlad gaxedavde stumars... SeiZleba, iseTi kargic iyo, rom babus TuTunic amourbenino soflis kenkela maRaziidan... magram SeiZleba, isec moxdes, rom saerTod arcerTi am saqmeTagani ar daivalo... Sen

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mainc babulias gogo iqnebi... Tvalxatula da haeriviT sifrifana... exla Sens sicxian qalaqSi movdivar, babu... Tan momaqvs Seni patara CitebiT moxatuli akvani... es akvani sagangebod SenTvis SevarCie... wesierad Tvla rom vicode, davTvlidi kidev, babu ramdeni akvani gamovTale da sul rom mekiTxebian sofelSi berikacebi, vupasuxebdi kidec... magram magas ra mniSvneloba aqvs, babu... rac gamovTale da gavakeTe yvela siyvaruliT da siTboTi mikeTebia... sul iavnanas davamRerebdi xolme da ase mgonia, esmodaT kidec Cemi am dalocvilebs... angelozebisTvis vakeTebdi da angelozebi mexmarebodnen... ise mixaroda, babu, Cems WiSkarTan rom kaci daiZaxebda akvani unda SegikveToo, es xom axali sicocxlis dabadebas niSnavda... ukanaskneli Zala movikribe, rom SenTvisac Cemi xeliT gamekeTebina es akvani... aba qalaqSi nayidi akvani, babu, ra iqneba... qalaqSi gazrdili xec ar varga... sxva madli aqvs Cvens xeebs... Sens SviliSvilebs eyofa es akvani, iseTi xisganaa gamoyvanili... ramdeni Sairis moyoleba vici xolme... axla matarebeli guguniT uaxlovdeba dedaqalaqs... Cemi gamoyruebuli dedakacic gverdSi mizis... meti Cven veRar SevZlebT, mgonia, rom CamovideT qalaqad... esec rom ar iyos, meTeqvsmete sarTulze ra amiyvans kidev erTxel, babu... sad SeuZlia caze siaruli Cvens beber muxlebs... genacvale, Sen, babu... Sen momeci axla amis Zala, rom isev davdgomodi am grZel da xmaurian

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gzas... Cveni adesac aqve midevs da albaT mamaSens erTi suli aqvs, yels rodis gaisvelebs Cveneburi RviniT...ki iqneba axla qeifis xasiaTze... varia SevwviT... aba, mand Semwvari qaTami ra misarTmevia stumrebisTvis... sulgunic ki gamoiyvana Tavisi mimWknari xelebiT bebiaSenma da zed jvari gamosaxa Sens saxelze babu... SoTi purebi ver gamovacxveT, mara ar gewyinos... daberda bebiaSeni da Zala aRar aqvs, apatie babu. ise micems guli, am matareblis gugunSic ki mesmis xma mkerdidan... rodis gnaxav da Segavleb Tvals, Cemo Tvalxatula... ai, gaCerda matarebeli da am werilis weras Tavs vanebeb, imdeni rame maqvs mosayoli, magram damTavrda gza da araa Cemi brali...ara uSavs, cotas aqiTobas mogwer babu kidev... tkiviliT da sevdiT maqvs, babu, guli savse... rogorRac amovbobRdiT meTeqvsmete sarTulze me da bebiaSeni, suli Zlivs amovitaneT... mara, raT ginda... Camagvamwara sixaruli dedaSenma da mamaSenma, me im daxvedras da miRebas ar vCivi, babu, magenma rom ician... ra eSmaki gamaCerebs am cixeSi, Zalianac rom Semexvewon...magram Seni kocnis ufleba ki mqonda, babukela... ramdenjer sizmarSi damsizmrebixar... ramdenjer warmomidgenia es dRe, magram amas rogor vifiqrebdi... bevri rom ar mogabezro Tavi, wuxel SuaRameze dedaSenis da mamaSenis Cxubma gamaRviZa... iseTi gabrazebuli iyo dedaSeni, TiTqos keTrovnebi vyolodiT saxlSi, mamaSens uCioda,

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ra undodaT, rom Camovidnen... ver moeswrebodnen Cvens Casvlas da naxvaso? es eSmakis mogonili akvani rom CamoaTries, sircxviliT Tavi sad gamovyo axlao... ra dros aseTi sisuleleebia... magaSi Cavawven exla Cems nanatr Svilso, momacile, Torem fanjridan gadavagdeb, icodeo... mamaSeni ki eubneboda raRacas, magram me meti araferi gamigonia... guli xeliT meWira da gaTenebas ase davelode... movkide dilas xeli Cems dedakacs da akvans da usityvod wamovedi... isic ki ver movaxerxe, SenTvis mekocna... wverebi gageparsa mainco, dedaSenma... ver davimaxsovre Seni saxe babu... rom sizmarSi mainc damsizmrebodi... me mand ra gamaCerebda... vzivar axla am vagonSi da vusmen bebiaSenis qviTins, viRacam mkiTxa, Svilebi ar gyavTo... dedakacma imTaviTve upasuxa –arao da guli Camwyda... TiTqos mexi dameca mkerdze da Caitana Cemi gulmkerdi qvesknelSi... am akvans ki vaCuqeb sofelSi vinmes... Tu sadme erTi bavSvi daibadeba, magram me xom is Seni siyvaruliT gavakeTe... mindoda, Sen dageZina da Cemi locva-madli dagfenoda sasTumalTan, babu... arasodes ar dagaviwydes, rom adamianebi mglebi arian da cxvrad nu moaCveneb Tavs, Torem SegWamen, babu... daundoblad SegWamen... ZaRls arasodes ukbenia CemTvis, babu, magram adamians ramdenjerac ginda... miyvarxar babu... neta iseTi qali dadgebode Cems saflavTan mosuli amas CamomZaxebdes, ra SviliSvili gagezarda, amirano... magram me ori paraskevi miklia da

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albaT or paraskevSi es ar moeswreba... ufals ebarebode Cemo mesisxlev... genacvalos Seni babulia.

1982w, 25 aprili...

es werili rom wavikiTxe dedaCemi mZimed iyo avad, arc ki vici, ratom gadmomca 20 wlis mere, SesaZloa, sinanulis gamo... magram me vici, rom aseTi saqcieli adamians odesme axsenebs Tavs da TviTgvemaSi vardeba...swored ase iyo dedCemic... ukurnebel sens ebrZoda, magram es araferi iyo misTvis... cdilobda, amqveyniuri codvebi moenania da sul locvaSi atarebda dReebs... da roca deda aRar iyo, misgan datovebuli aseTi werili miviRe `adamianebs mxolod cxovreba gvaswavlis adamianobas... Sexede Sens Tavs sarkeSi, da rac Cemi msgavsi dainaxo daasamare... waSale da daiviwye, Svilo... Sens TvalebSi aucileblad naxav babuas saxes... mis lamaz suls da ecade, am suliT icxovro... gagiWirdeba sikeTiT cxovreba, magram sjobs, Sen dagiSavon rame, vidre sxvas atkino... ar misce Tavs ufleba, Cemi geni dagepatronos... ebrZole Cems cuds SenSi, Svilo... da iloce Cemi sastiki sulisTvis... iloce, gTxov~ mas Semdeg wlebi gavida... rogorc iqna, eqimis diplomi aviRe da ojaxic Sevqmeni... iseTi bednieri viyavi roca gavige rom pataras velodebodi... meuRle sixaruliT cas ewia, saxlis sxveni gamoaRo... gamikvirda, iq ras eZebs meTqi... sxvenidan didi raxaruxiT raRac Camoitana

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kibeze... saxtad davrCi... miTxra, Cveni Svili akvanSi unda gaizardos, rogorc namdvili qarTvelio... mec am akvanSi gavizarde da Cemi Svilic ase iqnebao, gamecina...ra dros akvania, saidan moitane... an sad naxeTqo...sityva banze avugde... ocdaSvidi wlis win mamas da dedas, romelic Cemze orsulad yofila, matarebelSi viRac moxucebTan umgzavriaT da imaT uCuqebiaTo... gavSri... mere didxans, gagiJebiT vkocnidi damtveril... daobebul akvans da drodadro tirilnarevi siciliT avxedavdi meuRlis gaocebul Tvalebs...

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sarCevi

ufali . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 3Citebi da adamianebi . . . . . . . . . . 4*** (gulo, ra simarTliT memarTlebi) . . . . 4wvima . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 5mapatie, ufalo . . . . . . . . . . . 6sulis atana . . . . . . . . . . . . 7cxovreba . . . . . . . . . . . . . 8cam daiwera miwasTan jvari . . . . . . . 9suli . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 10kidev . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 11adamianebi . . . . . . . . . . . . . 12gaCumdi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 13vidre qveynad ufalia RmerTi . . . . . . 14Cemi wili siZulvili . . . . . . . . . 15cxovreba . . . . . . . . . . . . . 15Sen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16ar minda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16dauwereli leqsebi . . . . . . . . . . 16mapatie . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 17isev meZvirfasebi . . . . . . . . . . . 17martiv sityvebiT . . . . . . . . . . . 18erTmaneTTan varT . . . . . . . . . . 18

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xom SeiZleba... . . . . . . . . . . . . 18* * * . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 18* * * . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 19Seni guli . . . . . . . . . . . . . 19erTi saxeli . . . . . . . . . . . . 20ra dro gavida... . . . . . . . . . . . 21auxdeneli mtkiva sizmari . . . . . . . . 22maocnebeb . . . . . . . . . . . . . 22siCume Tovs . . . . . . . . . . . . 23dedamiwa . . . . . . . . . . . . . 24gelodi . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 25adamianebo . . . . . . . . . . . . . 25martooba . . . . . . . . . . . . . 26migule Seni tkivilis saxlad . . . . . . 27*** (mimaklda sisxli, vuwilade cota gazafxuls) . 28leqsis dabadeba . . . . . . . . . . . 28uSenod . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 29Sen, Cemo Tavo . . . . . . . . . . . . 30sarke . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 31gamicvale guli . . . . . . . . . . . 32(radgan Cvens qveyanaSi erTi wlis bavSvi mSieri iRupeba) . . . . . . . . . . . 33mainc vipove bina . . . . . . . . . . . 34Cemi iebi Sens baRSi yvavis . . . . . . . . 37

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*** (me Cems cxovrebas ekaliviT vawuxeb iqneb) . . . 38erTi sicocxle ar msurs gakmaro . . . . . 39cxovreba . . . . . . . . . . . . . 40bavSvobis megobrebs . . . . . . . . . . 41udedo Sveli . . . . . . . . . . . . 41davxure suli . . . . . . . . . . . 42*** (Tu qveyanaze samoTxe darCa) . . . . . . 43momenatrebi . . . . . . . . . . . . 43moTova . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 44*** (cas ewvia vnebis ali) . . . . . . . . . 44svaneTs . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 45xelebi meqca locva vedrebad . . . . . . 47guls ra gamicveTs, Tu ar metkina . . . . . 48Cemi sevda sangaria . . . . . . . . . . 49Cemi xar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 50isev . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 50natvris xeebi . . . . . . . . . . . . 51wamoval . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 51mivdivar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 52acivda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 52*** (gaudidda borots guli) . . . . . . . 52ca . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 53yvela tkivili gavyide . . . . . . . . . 53sizmari ar iyos . . . . . . . . . . . 54

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ra martivia . . . . . . . . . . . . . 55martooba . . . . . . . . . . . . . 56suls Cavudgamdi sityvebs . . . . . . . . 57grZnobis fiala . . . . . . . . . . . 58ufalo . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 58Cumad var . . . . . . . . . . . . . 59Semindvia . . . . . . . . . . . . . 59fantaziis vali maqvs . . . . . . . . . 60meuRles . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 61adamianebi da realoba . . . . . . . . . 62suls . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 63miyvarxar . . . . . . . . . . . . . 64maxsovs . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 64ra xdeba? . . . . . . . . . . . . . 65mindoda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 66oRond Sen erTi . . . . . . . . . . . 67me ver SevZeli . . . . . . . . . . . 68wvims . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 69qali . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 70sicocxle . . . . . . . . . . . . . 70Tu . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 71movxucdi RmerTic . . . . . . . . . . 72rodemde . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 73netav . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 74

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aseT siyvaruls . . . . . . . . . . . 75gamimartda . . . . . . . . . . . . . 75sevdis atana . . . . . . . . . . . . 76erTi sizmaric ver vnaxe Tbili . . . . . . 77sigJis zRvarze . . . . . . . . . . . 78ar gamxel . . . . . . . . . . . . . 79minda . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 79dro . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 80wvima . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 81vardisferi saTvale . . . . . . . . . . 81didi var... . . . . . . . . . . . . . 81gadamede . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 82mTvare . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 83Rame var . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 84ocnebebis qorwili . . . . . . . . . . 85Sen xar haeri . . . . . . . . . . . . 86dro . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 86bavSvobis mogoneba . . . . . . . . . . 87waval . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 89Cems merec iqneba lamazi maisi . . . . . . 90me ise kargad vTamaSob Cems rols . . . . . 91erTi dRiT albaT naklebi damrCa . . . . . 92dedas . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 93akvani . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 94